You don’t say. No, really, don’t say.

I know I owe you a blog post or seven on the first half of my Jumpstart program, since it was all I talked about for days,  but I’m fast forwarding to the second half.  This past Monday, my colleagues and I were required to select the companies we’re considering for our pro bono consulting fellowships.  “Consulting fellowship” is a sexy term for an internship, but it’s a legitimate descriptive because we’re too senior/experienced to be called “interns.” We were given a list of 85 projects to choose from and had to submit six by last Monday at 5PM.  I submitted them at 1:43PM, moments before heading out to the bar to watch Manchester United lose to Man City.  By the way, I’ve discovered that one of the benefits of being unemployed is that I get to watch a sporting event when/if I want to without fear of repercussions for playing hooky from a job.  (Note to all prospective employers reading my blog: I’ve never played hooky in my life.)  On Monday and Tuesday we have speed matching sessions where each Jumpstarter spends 10 minutes with each of the companies he/she chose.  We got our schedules on Friday and I noticed two things:

  1. I already lost one of my choices – apparently too many folks chose x company and so the powers that be eliminated some of us from contention before interviews.  I assume they worked out some algorithm to determine who lost out and didn’t just leave it up to chance;  and,
  2. All my interviews are on Monday.

Just sharing the logistics, folks.

On the Sunday night before our selections were due, I was talking to someone I’m very close with.  He asked to review my choices with me.  Since I respect his opinions, enjoy his role in my life and know he only wants the best for me, I was game.  In his zeal to support me with advice, his words had an opposite effect and did not make me feel good.  He ended up knocking each of the companies we talked about for one reason or another; “I don’t think that company will pan out” or “How will this company’s project help you going forward” or “This company sounds like it’s just community outreach.”  And then he hit me with this whammy which tied it all up with a nice little bow: “because you know, after this, you need a job.”  Ugh.  Interestingly enough, if there’s anyone that is aware of this little fact, it’s me.  And, as it turns out, I just happen to be the number 1 ranked person in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD in knowing that I need a job, and coincidentally, the #2 ranked person lives with me!

Sunday night into Monday morning is a rough time regardless of whether you have a job or not.  And it was now that much more difficult after the phone call.  Seeds of doubt had been planted in my head.  What’s going to happen when the Jumpstart program is over?  What if my project company doesn’t hire me?   (The conversion rate is 10%; the reasons behind that figure are unknown to me so I haven’t attached much meaning to it but I wanted to throw it out as a frame of reference.)  What if I haven’t landed anything outside the program?  What is it again that I really want to do with my life?  Will we be able to continue to afford our lives using creative financing, leveraging one income and credit cards?  My head was hurting.  And it didn’t get any better when I witnessed my team essentially lose the English Premier League title later in the day.  (I’ve gotten much better as the years have passed realizing that it’s only a game played by other people, but it still doesn’t elicit a happy feeling or a smile.)  And Monday night was blah as I went to a class on Small Business Marketing when all I really wanted to do was be with my family.   The next two days were kinda funky as well.  A lot had to do with the crappy weather and some had to do with the minutiae of everyday unemployed life.  That conversation sent me down a path I didn’t want to be on.  And only until a very funny conversation with my landlord did I get my swagger back.  We all have those days.  I don’t much like ’em though.  Especially now.

What all the Jumpstarters should be embracing, and what I forgot for a couple of days, is with each project, regardless of which one is chosen, there are experiences to be had, lessons to be learned, people to be met and everyday business challenges to be SOLVED.  And my colleagues and I will be better off after having gone through this part of the program.  I’m fired up about these interviews and the companies I selected.  It’s getting pretty exciting and I’m looking ahead to this next wonderful experience.  World… it’s on!


  1. Joey Noodles says:

    “I’m fired up about these interviews and the companies I selected.  It’s getting pretty exciting and I’m looking ahead to this next wonderful experience.”

    Admittedly, I did go back and re-read the entire post to ensure that it was indeed the work of my buddy Bri. Yep, finishing with the quote above seemed out of character and certainly not the norm from him.

    Yet there it was, and it really was how he closed his blog and gave us a snapshot on not only what he was thinking but also how was feeling. Congrats brother, with your head and heart in such a good spot, you are sure to see positive results sooner than later.


  2. Lee Schare says:

    Good Luck Brian!


  3. I too am starting a new chapter in my life, and everyday I am scared I have to go back to the same old corporate routine. I have decided that fear will not help so embrace each day like you do so brilliantly and know that inch by inch you will make it to your goal. We make our own success and have faith and know how that it will come. What I did realize is that I will create my own opportunities and I have the skill set to make it happen. You will make it happen because everything you have already done in your life speaks to the success you have created. You don’t need luck, you have courage and know how. You will make it happen, YOU will make it happen!


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